Love Birds

You'd think this would be an easy one, you post a picture, you say we're expecting or something fun and that's that.. this is different.     This is our new addition, Liam likes to call it Bean Bean and we decided it kind of stuck. So, this is Bean Bean. For some close family and close friends, you already knew about this but unlike Liam and unlike Gabriel, this was hard for me to post. Don't get me wrong, I can't even tell you how excited I am for another baby!! But I felt like I couldn't just post a picture and say "yup, here we are" I had mixed feelings. I  remember  wanting to wait with Gabriel, I told myself I wanted to wait until I "knew I wouldn't miscarry" until I "knew it was safe" but I've realized that every life is precious and I'm really glad we celebrated Gabriel no mater how short a life he had and I can't imagine going through all we did with out the support we got. So I moved past tha...

If you told me five years ago about half my trials I would experience just in this year, I would tell you that you have the wrong person, I'd tell you I'm not strong enough and there's just no way. Then if you told me about a year after that, I'd tell you I could maybe deal with those trials but only because I met a man, a man that I ended up marrying and who helps me through every trial in my life with a caring heart for me and a never ending faith. Then, as if I wasn't lucky enough to catch such a great guy, three years ago today, he chose me to have for eternity. I get this amazing man for all of this life and then forever! I remember that day like yesterday... maybe even better than that ;) I remember there was A LOT of things on that day that probably could have stressed me out, but some how they just didn't seem to mater, I remember that we had a dinner set up (since we got sealed later in the day) and on our actual wedding day I was worried about all thos...

Hey Everyone, I know it's been a while and honestly I don't really have the time for blogging nor do I enjoy it too much these days lol but I thought I owe it to myself and to the memory of my child to write on here again. I'm not writing this for the nosy, I'm not writing this to prove I can, I'm writing this for me and that feels pretty good so read if you want, or don't if you don't want, but this is for me and maybe those who I don't even know have gone through this and need help. This is hard for me, I surprised myself by wanting to write this today of all days because.. well .. today has been extremely hard and do you know what sucks about that? Someone could say "Why?" or "What happened today that made it so hard?" ... I wouldn't have an answer. Some days I make it through and some days I have to pray just to get out of my bed and stop crying. For those of you who know us well, by now, you know we have just lost our bab...

Hey Everyone,    Well, our big boy is now almost 14 months old. Yes to most normal people that just means a year and usually that's what I tell people he is, I figured "They don't need to know exactly how many months, that's stupid. He's a year and that's that" Boy was I wrong! I think people do that because their child is literally always changing, growing and learning in this first year. Liam amazes me everyday with how sweet and funny and mischievous he is. I think everyone feels like their child is the smartest kid ever but I swear Liam is almost too smart for his own good! ;) So for the update on our little cutie pie: Liam is now (like I said) almost 14 months old and he: Fits in size 4 diapers Weighs about 24 pounds Measures 28 Inches long Has 8 teeth Wears 18 month Clothes Wears Size 4 shoes Loves: Elmo, chocolate milk, dancing, singing, daddy, family, cars, and our dog Bubblegum. Says: Elmo Bubble (in a growling voice for our dog)...

Hey Readers! Well it's about 9:00p here as I start to write this, I put my son down for the night about a half hour ago and now my mind and my heart are full. Tonight Liam went down pretty easy like he does almost every other night but instead of just giving him his kiss and putting him in his crib tonight, I couldn't put him down. I sat looking at my son who is now creeping closer and closer to being a year old and I couldn't help but feel a little sad. I just sat in the chair thinking "I SWEAR you were just in my tummy.... right?" Time goes by SO fast, it's almost been two years since finding out I was carrying my sweet angel with my everyday in my growing tummy. I remember nights where he was kicking so hard I couldn't even sleep and sometimes that was really hard but sometimes, in the quiet of the night with my husband sleeping next to me, I just sat watching my belly move and jump and couldn't help but smile. I couldn't help but wonder wha...

Hey you guys! Gosh I think I'm getting worse at this whole blog stuff but today I went through past posts and it made me smile and realize I want to keep updating for everyone and for myself to keep looking back on. So I mostly just wanted to say that life is pretty good. The holidays were SO fun with Liam, he was a cute Thomas the Train and a Karate kid for Halloween, we spent Thanksgiving this year with Colt's family and had some yummy dinner and fun family time, and then spent time with both families for Christmas and Christmas Eve. Liam was pretty darn overwhelmed by all the presents but he was very spoiled this year! :) So all of that was really fun... then came January. Is it just me or is January INSANELY boring?!?! lol I've been inside A LOT with the cold winter and yucky inversion and now my work at Gordmans is WAY slow since it's after the holidays. (oh yeah p.s. I get to stay there!! They hired me on as a actual employee instead of holiday help, yay!) Nee...

Hey Everyone,           Well, it's 10:41 PM but this is the only time I've had to get a chance to write. So now for an update with the family. Colton, Liam, and I are doing great!! I should start with saying that.... WE GOT OUR OWN PLACE!! :) We are now in a beautiful 2 bedroom, 1 bathroom apartment. It is on the top floor with no one on either side of us and has an awesome balcony! The view outside is beautiful and it really just feels like home!          Colt got a new job, A great new job too! He's now working at Murdock Chevy as an auto body tech. It is SO awesome because he now literally works like RIGHT down the street from home so he can stay longer for lunch and he gets home right after work and it has saved us a lot with gas money for him. It has been so nice to see him come home less stressed and enjoying what he does again! This place has been so great for him with benefits, better mon...