About Me
Today I woke up feeling depressed, not "sad" not "kind of off" fully, deeply, scary depressed. I don't get that way often and usually I can "get out" on my own but as I'm crying in my closet wondering if I could call or talk to anyone, I called my angel of a friend. Someone who has been open to me about their dark moments and their own experience with depression. They had some very wise and needed words for me, they helped me feel seen at my most vulnerable times. When I got off the phone, I felt better and worse. Better because I'm so glad I had someone to help me, worse because I realized I don't feel enough of myself to reach out to anyone else without feeling like I would be a burden to them or too much to deal with. This year has been one of the hardest I've experienced in probably almost a decade. We've had some intense and very real trials in our family, our marriage, and in my own life. I wish I could say I've handled i...